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racking with frustration
Sunday, April 6, 2003 10:14 p.m.
ARRRGH!! I can't imagine reading a more frustrating book ›___‹!!! It's not that it's bad or anything, in fact it's so brilliantly written it makes me fume in frustration. I just want to pick up the entire damn nation of Atherans and give them a shake. Bang their heads into the wall if I have to..!!
Sanity speaking: she is currently reading "The Ships of Merior", the 2nd volume in "The wars of light and shadows" by Janny Wurts.
As if it's not bad enough that two half-brothers are pitched against each other in a battle *points to book title* between light and dark, both of them are decidedly likeable. Although there is far more sympathy (rather typically) on the Shadow's side because he is made a bloody scapegoat for everything from ruinations of cities, massacres, bandit raids and whatnot.
Sanity intervenes again: She is talking about Arithon s'Ffaleinn, the "Master of Shadows". Since his last confrontation with his half-brother Lysaer s'Ilessid which resulted in mass destruction on both sides of the battlefield, he has failed to reappear for five years. Meanwhile, Lysaer gathers support and forces to root out his own brother, and the entire..
..damn nation is convinced that everything is Arithon's fault! Which is hardly possible when he's lost his magecraft. And what is more frustrating is the fact that he has a bloody heavy conscience...
Sanity ensues: Before the fateful battle had occurred, Arithon and Lysaer had worked together to bind the Mistwraith Desh-thiere in order to restore the light to the heavens. In a lash of vengeance, the Mistwraith cursed both brothers to a deadly feud, the unravelling of which could cause both brothers to perish, body and soul.
Uh huh, and no problem with that ~~; Both of them are likely to perish anyway. ARGH I hate the way this is heading!!! What if one of them dies???? What if BOTH of them dies?????? This is the first time I've read this author, so I have NO idea how it's going to turn out. And I don't have the 3rd book *wail of despair*
Although this book reminds me in various ways of Louis Cooper's "The Chaos Gate" trilogy, the whole battle between the traditional values of light and dark, good and evil, order and chaos, Janny Wurts managed (where others have failed) to create two extremely likeable characters on warring ends. Because I started reading in the 2nd book, which centres largely around Arithon and his plight to preserve both his conscience and his life - which is near impossible - I fail to sympathise with Lysaer, although it is quite obvious that he would have been a likeable character had I read the first book. The language of her writing is detailed but entrancing, and never repetitive.
She follows a comfortable pace unlike the great epic-weavers such as Robert Jordan. Her characters are engaging and believable where need be, a subtle blend of born heroes, made heroes, figureheads of corruption, and caricatures of indulgence. Her plot is nicely woven, without too much intervening detail - which may work well for a great epic *cough* but often fails to linger in the reader's memory on first reading. Great plot sometimes overshadows the need for character development, where characters become only a vehicle for the plot; but here you feel as if the characters are thinking on their own whim, despite it being bleedingly obvious that many of them are hampered by fate. She also balances the emotions of the book very well, THUS MY CAUSE OF FRUSTRATION!!! *veins popping*
Hi, this will be last speech by sanity: she will now press "done!" and go back to reading, and relieve all of you of her insanity.
*Kicks sanity* *Storms to library for 3rd book*
cyborgness?
Tuesday, March 25, 2003 09:08 p.m.
Didn't go to school today. Woke up feeling like that horrible Kylie Minogue song. I could literally hear her squealing "Aye-m, spinning arownd, moov outa mai wai, I know ya feelin' mi cos you like it like dis..." Gah, dunno what happened. Felt so dizzy for the whole day, every time I sat up the room spun ~~;
Trying to check out new updates on DNAngel, but despite its popularity, I can't find a decent site that updates often enough to provide monthly Asuka summaries *sob* Inuyasha has updated...Looks like Kikyou didn't really die after all, despite what dog-boy says. Even if she's dead, she's not dead-dead ~~;
Interesting site...found when I read this interesting blog, or the archive of. I managed to churn out this:
k.i.s.e.k.i. - Kinetic Individual Skilled in Efficient Killing and Infiltration
‹ insert maniacal evil laughter along the lines of MUA HA HA HA ›
Considering how well that one turned out, I decided to put in Rowan...whose character was, after all, only half human:
r.o.w.a.n. - Replicant Optimized for Warfare and Accurate Nullification
Wee...very accurate Oo;; *Goes back to her Pride and Prejudice* T__T
one more assessment to go
Sunday, March 23, 2003 05:58 p.m.
That's right, I've had two assessment this week, not to mention one on my birthday, which was Wednesday, so in US time, it incidentally was the same day the ultimatum time was up. Pretty stupid anyway, all these people came up to me the day before and went "Oh it's your b'day tomorrow huh? Sorry, you won't be getting your present for a looooong time, what with the chem assessment and stuff."
Me: "Thanks."
What was even more stupid was that only 4 people remembered that it was my b'day on the actual day. *sigh*
Anyway, I've been working more on my "Rowan" story..and I should really start thinking up a title for it. Yes yes, I'm supposed to be working on my 4U one instead, but to heck with that.
Been researching a bit on the names and things, seems like Rowan and Ash were well-named. Funny thing when I put it into a numerology calculator. "Reine" (Daruthlee and Meiseth's last name) and "Merling" (Ash and Rowan's last name) turned out the same meaning for both. Apparently "There are a lot of good looking people in this family". *Raises eyebrows*
Even if this story doesn't turn out very well, at least I'll be happy with the names, which is more than what I can say for "Fealty". I've also done a character design for Ashira and Rowan, and coloured it too!!
Other stuff...A few new wallpapers at beyond, none of which I'm really happy with except the Sakura one, which is pretty simplistic, but I like the blurry effect. Also, I made 2 layouts for ddg.com. The first one was a Hikaru (Angelic Layer) div layers one, and it SUCKED, mainly because I have no idea how to do div layers. The 2nd is Kyoko (Time Stranger) and I think it's more popular because of the actual art ~~; Wai, but Arina Tanemura's art is soooo pretty.
I've been doing so much outside school I wonder if I can put it into my CV ~~; Been working on a translation for B-Wanted lately...hmph. What exactly can we put on our CV anyway?
hamlet
Friday, March 7, 2003 12:29 a.m.
I'm now officially going through a Hamlet obsession phase!! XD Usually I don't like Shakespeare's stories. Sure, the language is very impressive, but the plot and characters are often unoriginal. The comedies we studied in years 8 and 9, Midsummer Night's Dream and Merchant of Venice were immemorable. Macbeth was alright, there was quite a bit of sympathy for him because he is misunderstood and labelled as evil, despite being wrong just once and then forced to take the dead end. Othello and its namesake was stupid. Desdemona was stupid. Iago was smart, but his character comes across as contrived. Romeo and Juliet was a sweet love story, but it's not even ranked as one of the great tragedies because of its material.
Now, Hamlet was a bit different. Even though the story is still plagiarised *cough*, a lot of its characters are given enough depth and dimension to seem very real. Claudius the villain is given an interesting touch so that he was ambitious like Macbeth but with enough will to decide for himself, yet also manipulative and diplomatic like Iago without having no good reason for it. The women, as usual, seemed sketchy, although I thought the strained relationship between Gertrude and Hamlet was pretty realistic in terms of their status.
Last night we went to see a production of Hamlet by Bell Shakespeare's company. Leon Ford's Hamlet was, as the production people put it themselves, a sweet-natured young man just entering his twenties and adulthood, as opposed to the traditional older and graver Hamlet. I think by reading the play, I always thought Hamlet's prescribed age (at the very very least 26...probably near 30) was far too old for the way he acted, although there's the account of different times. He is immature and indecisive, childishly making excuses for his inaction while at the same time pitying and preening himself for his fate, which results in him spending quite a few acts rebelling against it, wavering between duty and freedom. He also makes a lot of wrong decisions based on rather childish thoughts...like the decision he makes on not killing Claudius, who appeared to be praying, because then Claudius would go to heaven and not hell, the irony of which was that Claudius couldn't pray.
Quite a lot of the production was very funny. Rosen+Guild's bantering with Hamlet when they first reunited was great. Hamlet's insolent punning around Polonius and Ophelia were often hilarious. There were sad moments (although we failed to appreciate them ~~;;) but I thought the final scene wasn't that sad, even in the original. Eeh, Hamlet's dying speeches weren't even as memorable as Othello's "..then must you speak/Of one loved not wisely but too well", although Hamlet's last words, "the rest is silence" rings far more ominously than Othello's "to die upon a kiss". I thought it was quite sad the irony that Hamlet gave Denmark to Norway, despite it being a pretty wise choice.
My favourite scene in the production, and I think the same for a lot of other people, was when Hamlet crept up behind Claudius as he was praying. The lighting effects were wonderful (especially since we weren't near the stage). The spotlight is on Claudius and Hamlet's shadow just liquifies into existence behind him and the whole dramatic lighting...*________* I didn't like the closet scene, but it was quite funny when Hamlet first started acting mad and he came in dressed very scruffily and everyone asked "who's that??" XD Man, that actor was soo scrawny he looked stretched in the vertical direction ~~;; The costume that he wore quite cleverly transforming him from this forbidding, angry young man into a scruffy, unseasoned youth. The ending scenes where he re-entered with his trenchcoat was cool, as all trenchcoat scenes are XD His voice was a bit annoying at bits...seemed really whiny.
Yes, Hamlet is probably going to be my favourite Shakespeare play ever...because of its characters. Apparently it's a very popular play that gets redone again and again, but I don't think I want to look at an older version of Hamlet...since my version of Hamlet will always be younger because I feel it justifies his actions more. For the same reason, I don't think I want to see Volpone ever again because my idea of Mosca will always be a youthful, cheeky, clever knave rather than an old, scheming, evil man around the same age as Volpone.
Did you know apparently William Shakespeare had a son named Hamlet, who died at the age of 11? And in the first production of Hamlet, Shakespeare played "the Ghost"?
gay ass guest speaker
Saturday, March 1, 2003 11:17 p.m.
Eesh, had some stupid guest speaker come to talk to us about writing. Boiling it down it would be *plug plug plug my writing plug plug plug plug plug* *more plug* *bell rings* *wait!! plug plug plug* ARGH!!!!!!!
I just thought he was an idiot, besides he didn't tell us anything we didn't know. Voice, tone, description, hell come ON, we're 4 unit people here??? You'd think we all know how to write already??? Maybe give us some pointers on editting, or improving, rather than just the basics??? He completely missed the point. He was really nit-picky about styles too. He told us to edit without telling us how to edit. He didn't really go into details about what a good written piece is, he gave examples without pointing out WHY it was good. Oh yeah, so that paragraph sounded really authentic...but what made it sound authentic??
He also had a thing against rhetorical questions, without backing it up with convincing reasoning. People use rhetorical questions to express stream of consciousness or interior monologue. It brings the reader closer to the character as they follow the character's thoughts around. It is conversational and casual, therefore making the character a helluva more approachable. Alright, so what's his deal with it huh??? It's just stupid to pull off all these "do" and "don't" without explaining anything. What's even more annoying is that he keeps pulling out his books and plugging them. What are you here for?????
That done, I've done a little bit more at my little sci-fi thing...not all that great. Need to thin down the language a little.
For my imagination, this story should have begun with my birth, followed by the peaceful, laughter-filled days of childhood. It was a childhood I saw in other people's homes while my own was a bitter shadow of survival. I was a haclone -- an ethical stigma born from the union of a human and a clone. The 538th to do so, to be precise. Most haclones were never born due to genetic mutations. Most never survive past childhood, dying of radiation exposure in the wastefields where haclones were sent to work side by side with clones, robots and the condemned.
Humans themselves lived on water, great cities that sprawled across the vast oceans, abandoning the land that had long been sapped dry of life. Now, centuries on, humans thought to rebuild the land, and it was us who were sent to chip away at the devastation humans left behind.
We were destined to die, consumed by the land we were to restore life to. Yet I had a different fate.
A human boy sought me out and sponsored me into Marinton. His name was Ash. I was to kill for him, and in return, I was allowed a piece of human life. He offered no alternative. Least of all, death.
All my targets were the Spirited. Humans had wanted to encounter the 3rd kind, and they were granted their wish in the most unpleasant way when cloning was perfected. No scientist before then could have believed the existence of the soul. The soulless clones they produced were possessed by life from other planets. Earth exploded into riot, battered by nameless invasion from without, torn by moral disagreement from within.
Finally someone stood up and made a decision. Clones were no longer humans, they were programmed and controlled by computers instead of a whole functional brain. Emotions and thought were taken away from them.
It didn't change the existence of the Spirited. As the world quietened down, dangers were forgotten in a typically human way. People began to doubt, no longer motivated by fear. The Federal set up a secret subdivision of executioners whose sole purpose was to uncover the Spirited and destroy them. Ash was one member.
And so, five years later, there I was after another assignment, acting the part of a nonchalant Maglev passenger as blood drenched my shirt.
"Excuse me," someone tapped my shoulder. No sooner than I glanced up did the girl press a stunner to my head. "...a haclone...?"
Weary and careless, I tried to push her away. The next thing I knew was that she pulled on the trigger.
Miff...Lots of background information, but also lots I haven't packed in yet. I wonder what colour eyes I should give Rowan? I was thinking of something unusual but not horrifying...maybe honey gold. ^shrugs^ No red or pink, hopefully. I still don't know his character very well...I know that because I haven't started sketching his character designs yet ^^;;; Hmm...there's a bit of a conflict here. He thinks a lot, which technically makes him a very bad assassin...Oo;; Gah...planning flaw. Oh well.
I've updated the stormloader version of beyond and shall update the hosted version presently. That means a new wallpaper, namely Cardcaptor Sakura. A bit of cuteness and sunshine in these pressured weeks. Ja.
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